She has a lot of guys to talk to. She has different guys to fall asleep and talk on the phone with. She’s afraid of being alone but rather be alone. No, she doesn’t play around with guys feelings, she tries not to lead guys on. She’ll tell them if she doesn’t have an interest in them like that. Guys keep trying though, they keep trying hard to get her, they want to treat her right, to do her right but she doesn’t feel the same. Feelings can’t be forced, and she doesn’t want to lie. She’s hurt. She fell for a lot of guys, who didn’t feel the same as her or want to commit to only her. She put in effort just like how the other guys put in effort for her on the guy who she never got. She’s hurt, because she once went for a guy who was hurt. She became who he was. Now she is trying to find a guy who would break that cycle. That cycle she been in.
We’ve made it to a year, a month and three days. I miss you so much. It hurts me everyday to know that I can’t see you. I’m hoping to get a letter from you as soon as I can. I’m glad you finally called me Wednesday. It really made my day. I was literally about to cry when I heard your voice. I can’t wait to see you. I talked to your mom like you said to, and she misses you too. I can’t believe it took you to get into the predicament that you’re in now to realize that she was no good for you. I hope you learned your lesson. I want you to come home, back home to DALLAS. There’s no other place I’d want you to be if it’s not with me or your mom. I love you so much and I hope and pray for you everyday. I’m hoping for a miracle. I know you’ve been trying to call me but I have to buy another 15 minute phone call. ): I wanna hear your voice again, but for now, I’ll be waiting for your letter. I love you, my monkey butt and I’ll forever hold it down until you touch back down. ♥
Monkey Butt &; Baby Butt♥
March 4th, 2011;
